A random comment from your's truly...

[hitobannofokkusu]

Okay, so how many people here have heard the song "Whiskey Lullaby"?

If you haven't, then go here: www.youtube.com/watch?v=7gV3g9LCvPc&eurl=http://youtube.com/user/Inuyasha123lover123

Okay, now that that's out of the way, you can continue to read.

I would just like to say that that song brings me to tears every time I hear it. I have no idea why, I'm probably just a sap (I always cry during Bambie and Homeward Bound too), but I was wondering if I'm alone in this sap-age.

So, anyone else here cry during this song?

[Tsukikage]

I've heard the song before, and I really... it's a love-hate thing. These people are sad, and frankly, kind of pathetic... there are other ways to deal with these sort of things. I don't like the song at all by principle, but somehow find it sadly beautiful. There is something about being that in love, but... it's just... idk... I hate to listen to it, but when I am, I have to hear it to the end...

[hitobannofokkusu]

Yes, well I don't mind the principle too much. The harmonies and the deep connection with the love thing is what gets to me.

**VULNERABLE MOMENT!! IF YOU DON'T WANT TO READ IT THEN PASS IT UP!**

So there's this guy I know and I've known him since pre-K. Smoking hott, (that's hot with a capital HO...) really funny, sweet, the most AMAZING at Ninja Hide and Seek (if you want to know more about that then you have to ask), and has awesome hair. I watched him grow up and go through girlfriends and I realized about a year ago that I love him. I don't LIKE him, I LOVE him. Love love. You know the sort (maybe).

So I watched him get his first girlfriend and he told me one night (completely oblivious to my obvious adoration) that when he and his girlfriend are together at night, every time they see a shooting star, they kiss. I saw one, and he saw it too, but I got no kiss...

Well she ended up cheating on him with just about everyone in town, the meretricis (I say it in latin so I don't get in trouble), and just about broke his heart (first love and all, you know?)

Then when I got to High school I thought "Hey, maybe he'll notice me now?" But no, he goes and dates my best friend. I had to listen to her (also oblivious to my adoration) talk on and on about how much he loves her and how much she loves him and how they tell each other about everything (like what used to be with me and him) and on and on and on. There were times I couldn't take it anymore and I might have snapped at her a bit with some lame excuse about headaches or somesuch. They soon broke up.

There was a period of about a week and a half when he was single, and I thought about telling him how I felt, but then he got ANOTHER girlfriend (they seem to multiply when they're with the one you want). She's an out of towner and a Scene kid. She's got the hair and everything. She totally and completely hates me because when she came with him to the Band Banquet I smiled at her and then gave him a big hug. I wasn't trying to be rude or anything, I just wanted to give him a hug. I hug him every day for crying out loud! So when I look back at her she's glaring at me like I'm some vile snakelike being. Then she hooked her arm in his and pulled him away to go get pics taken. All night when I tried to go and talk to him she would pull him away for some reason or another and he's so dopey sometimes that he didn't notice. But I did. They're still dating and, now that it's summer, probably seeing a lot more of each other.

So, you might be asking what the point of this whole rant is? How on earth does this tie in with the song? Well I'll tell you, but you're not going to like it.

During this time I thought about pulling the plug. I just wanted to end it all and maybe kill the nagging jealousy and pain and anger. But I didn't, lucky me, and now I'm stuck here, just about twelve years after I met him, without him. I'm beginning to give up hope...

**END OF PITY PARTY. YOU MAY READ ON NOW**

So you see why I like the song. It's real pretty and the harmonies just get to me. When I hear lovely harmonies like that I tend to want to cry anyway and the whole dieing for love thing just pushes it over the edge lol

EDIT

OMG I just realized how long that is... o.0 My bad. I guess I needed to get it off my chest lol

[Tsukikage]

; this is why I don't date...
I have several friends of the female gender -- in fact, almost all of my best friends are girls, but my absolute closest friend on the whole planet is a guy -- but none I'd consider a girlfriend. The closest I got to a girlfriend was practically dating a lesbian... that was weird. I mean, I love the girl, in that brotherly love kinda way, but there were times when I thought, Maybe... just maybe... Anyway, we did practically everything together, but one day I had a slip of the tongue moment, and she got mad and she said she'd never speak to me again... then I see her a week later, we go to dinner with one of her friends and my brother (totally non-date), and then... that was kinda it... she was even acting like nothing was wrong between us... I miss her.
Geez, now I'm crying... thanks a lot, Heets.

[hitobannofokkusu]

*whimper*

My bad...

I made myself cry too, if it helps anything?

I don't date anymore. I'm holding out for either the aforementioned male or a decent one who won't cheat on me with every s***ky meretricis that comes along looking for a little fun. Stupid mother...I frickin hate him.

The other day I was walking across the Band hall and he was there talking to his friends (who also happen to be my friends but I steer clear when he's talking to him so I don't have the urge to punch him in the face) and I overheard one of my friends asking him why so many people are mad at him. He said "everyone's not-she's the only one that's pissed at me."

UH-DUH!! God, I swear...sometimes I just want to rip all that pretty hair out of his stupid head!

Wow, I just went from real sad to boiling mad in two seconds flat... Watch out world... o.o lol

[Tsukikage]

;
*smiles and backs away slowly*
It's all good. Momentai, Heets, really.

[hitobannofokkusu]

Sorry...I should probably work on the whole TMI thing... ^^;

I'm done. Promise. XD

[Tsukikage]

Okay... I mean, idk... we come and play out our characters so we don't have to deal with this kind of crap 24/7 right? Actually, it's kind of interesting how much Tsuki and my other characters are like me, and experiencing the same sorts of things going on in my life right now -- nobody's died, thank God. But anyway, it's more of an emotional connection, with different circumstances.
Okay, there's my random comment.

[hitobannofokkusu]

I see. Just like Hito is a part of me.

[Tsukikage]

Yeah, basically. Each of them is like a different aspect; put 'em all together and you get me. ^^

[hitobannofokkusu]

It's mainly just Hito that's like me. Everyone else are reflections of my friends. o.0